January 2012
0236hrs foalways
Its the end of another week. I spent it mostly in bed w thboy nursing me.
Its better now, easier now. Conversations in th dark before sleep, endless drives, argues that are well mended. Its better now. Obviously I’m one t kno how good things can turn bad so quick…but this joy is fo me t keep. Fo now.
Goodnight. Visting at my place tomorrow!
1942hrs hahhahahahahahha
Caxs: she said she's an adult dude.......
Mwen: well, I must be 50.
1254hrs never thought I'd meet th Devil
There’s no point on trying to fight your rights with someone who would never admit their wrongs. There’s no point in treating wounds that would end up there again eventually. Why then do I keep trying. Why do I keep trying.
I need peace. I need a higher realization that this life is bigger and better than it is now. I will die if this doesn’t end, I feel my soul rotting at its...
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when i love him so. it's the 4th CNY i'm gonna...
I cried while reading your note to me. Dear stranger, I cannot say I fully comprehend the pain and longing you must feel but I know how it feels like to love and be part from the one you wish to hold close. I’m sorry to hear what has happened to you but I encourage you to find love again somehow. Perhaps not now or anytime soon but one day do open your heart to someone who deserves you....
Preward Patient - Sundown Sadness
A nostalgic...
0346hrs young girl don't cry
There’s a kind of unexplainable pain when I sit and read emails pouring their heart out to me, telling me their hurt, showing me their scars. Strangers who know me only by name, by face who leave me notes of their story after knowing mine.
Then there’s this extremely excruciating helpless heartache when the one I love most calls in the middle of the night doing the same. Because all...
THURSDAY
“We insist, it seems, upon living.”
– Virginia Woolf, The Waves (via bookoflead)
1227hrs how then
When th one you wna run to is th one who you wna cry about.
0228hrs love lockdown
School makes me feel demoralized and tired at most times. On nights like these when my day is long and hard I only look forward t sleep fo a better day tomorrow. But tonight, sleep is as tough as the day was.
I hate days like these. I hate days like today, nights like tonight. I hate to know I’m capable of this tiresome cries again. Goodnight everyone, tomorrow will be better.
today at 5:40a
caxs: It pains me so much cuz I know you're trying but thrs a small part of me that keeps remembering how you've hurt me before. And I'm sorry that I'm so damaged, I love you which is why I'm trying. But you can walk away anytime cuz I know how difficult I can be. But I'm sorry I'm jz too afraid. And anw next time if I say I don't wna talk jz gimme abt half an hour t cool down and call u back or I'll jz say nasty things out of my fear....... Anw, rest well. Join us tmr if you've nth on. Loveyou, g9t..
thboy: It pains me to see you this way and I blame myself for the person I used to be and the damage that I've caused upon you. Which is the reason why I ought to stay and win your trust back because I love you so. At least now I know how to react whenever you say you don't wanna talk. Thank you for trying and explaining to me. I'm trying really hard to be your man. I love you and I will let you know bout tmr when I get up. Good night.
1037hrs Keri asks stupid questions.
Keri: your house have hair dryer right?
Caxs: (I stare at her really hard) no, we stand at th balcony
“I make mistakes. That’s what I do. I speak without thinking. I act without...”
– Carrie Bradshaw (via alexdaresyou)
2330hrs I will turn myself around
And I guess no matter how tall a wall I build up, pieces would fall, escalating th fear I run in circles with in my head. I wish it didn’t have to be this way, most times I know it doesn’t have to be this way but the game of give and take isn’t always a simple one to play, making nice doesn’t always come easy.
There will always be troubling times. But if there’s...
Then I'll go down as a casualty of Love
