August 2010
1631hrs
Yayyyy done w submission.
I am so drained……. feels funny, like I’m drunk. I totally forgot I actually tumblred while driving t sch today. Ohhhh I’m so sleepy. I’m actually hungry too.
1001hrs bbming mommmsie
caxs: I haven't slept since yesterday!!
Rita: why why you crazy??!!!???
caxs: Was doin work th entire night and now's class at 9am.arghhhh dying. Going crazy already hahahahahaha
Rita: Dat's not productive....your body needs rest thn your brain can function properly, after done wif school don't hang around head straight home & catch on your sleep....wait not pretty
caxs: .... yaaaa I'm going home t die ahhahahaha
Rita: K k...drink more H20 not Redbull, your body needs more fluid....hv a gd day caxs: redbull gives you wingsss!!! Okokkkk loveyou!
0843hrs
Sch was from 11am-6pm yesterday. No, I haven’t slept since, otw t sch now, 9am-6pm. Th only reason I’m tumblrg in this jam is me falling aslp at every halt. Every red light again, I fall asleep again.
And mind you, Britney is playg fuckg loudly. Arghhhh how am I gna gett throughh th day!!!! :’O
0601hrs
Hello I am still awake. I’m going crazy.
onlinejournals:
Same bed, same thoughts, same story, same strangeness, same wants, same needs, same separation, same longing, same promises, same broken promises, and I won’t see you for a few years when we’ll start it all over again, just the same.
0052hrs
i stayed in the entire day. i sound so disgusting when i say im still in my pjs dont i? but i am, my hair’s all over the place and i still smell yesterday’s shampoo, still in the same pjs. ive been doing work, making prints and market research. i contemplated texting, played and scrolled up and down on my phone but i decided against it cuz there must be a reason why im not gettg any on...
StepUp3
moose: from th scale of 1 to 10, how much do you hate me
camille: I don't hate you Moose, I miss you. And what's worst, is knowing you don't miss me

It’s not that I didn’t care
It’s that I didn’t know.
It’s not what I didn’t feel,
It’s what I didn’t show.
0124hrs
I’ve exhausted my words.
I think I’m going t keep mum fo abit. I think I’m going t keep away from eyes that hits right through fo abit.
I’ve exhausted all my words.
Goodnight everyone, every stranger, every friend. Goodnight you.
I’ll talk t you soon again.
If I’m not in love with you, what is this I’m going through tonight
And if my heart is lying then, what should I believe in
why don't you be th writer and decide th words I...
I knew I wouldn't forget you and so I went and let...
Tennessee line
I open my lungs
To breathe in forgiveness and love
Haunting me now, reminders of how I used to be
And on down the road my troubles are sure to follow
Looking out the window the hell if I know where I will go
So I’ll just keep on driving
On my way to L.A.
Looking into the rear view as the roads fade away
I’ve sworn off my past
First to last bad call that I ever made
Tell me...
1554hrs "get out of it while you can"
Stumbling home with smudged eyes and falling lashes at 6 after nana. I cried so hard and so loud, it felt like before..when I had no pride nor control. It felt good t know I was still capable of it, of those angry tears.
Being in nana’s toilet with echoing puking sounds from one cubicle t another with all th voices speakg to me while I confessed my fears and my feelings fo who and who t...
0105hrs @ butterr
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh. I wna be home under th sheets w freezing temperature watchg Simpsons with a another being.
Or Southpark.
Or FamilyGuy.
Or Greys Anatomy? Yeah, Meredith and her dark dark thoughts would do some good now actually. Okay, Greys Anatomy.
0005hrs
I really hate how moody I’ve been. I really hate how this page is filled with nothing but reckless words spoken by my careless heart. I don’t wna sound this broken. I don’t wna sound this mad. I don’t wna feel th way I feel.
But when you go t th Doctor’s, you let em know your illness hence th prescription after t recover,no?
Now is, I can’t find th reason fo...
1740hrs movie? anyone?
I’m in th theatre w Sharon now, and a trailer jz came up, “NOWHERE BOY”….oh so naice..I doubt anyone would bother about a show like that tho… Hmmmmm
I wna watchh I wna watchhhhhh.
Date meeeeee now :( mwen..? Hehe
0024hrs
i remember how i had continuos nightmares.. not of ghosts or unhappy faces. i used to have nightmares of how i stood by th window with th explosive sounds from far away, getting nearer and nearer until finally i saw the buildings crash and burn in my eyes. and in those nightmares i just stood there by the window and heard the thunder setting in and the heat gliding into my skin. and i knew then, i...
“Nick darling,
…………
When I received your letter a few...”
– I will never forget you. Frida Kahlo & Nickolas Muray
1602hrs
58mins more….. Oh you should hear my teacher go on and on and on about our designs.
I haven’t had anything t eat fo th day and the noise makes me feel like puking th emptiness in my stomach. Argh.
56mins more…..
TUESDAY sch's2-5.
0520hrs
I just remembered I got home only at 6 in th morning yest and had 4hrs of sleep before sch. which also means this is th 20th hour I’m awake, relying on those 4hrs of dreams.
Okay I’m still not done. Laters
being indecisive comes with a price and your time...
0239hrs
Naice. Feels like old times, I’m up doing work. 52more designs t go…
Hmmmm times like these I wished I made th effort t download Skype. But then again……….
2008hrs
maybe all I want is a constant freshness. someone who’d ask about my day, everyday. who’d still say hello and not treat my existence as a matter-of-a-fact thing.
maybe that’s all we need. to be sure that feelings don’t wear out with time.
1936hrs
theres th smell of grass. you kno..th smell when it rains. th feeling of dampness but roughness when you comb through your hair with your fingers..
and then there’s th feeling of your body temperature rising..amusing you into thinking its a fever but someone touches your forehead and tells you you’re thinkg too much.
It just got done raining, so I jz came out of th shower, lying face...
“She’s not like that now. She knows better. She knows now that people lie and...”
– (via eletheowl)
1 tag
You know even thou I do not know you, not even fit...
That’s nice of you. See you around stranger.
WHAAAA?
you helped me figure out I'm better off alone
1414hrs
So this is me daily, or at least on a school day. Constant crackg of my knuckles, rebull and black menthol, hair bun in a mess, sunblock, only sunblock. And th cracks that bleed between lines of my lips.
There is so much work and its playing with my stomach, Its nauseating. I don’t reckon much sleep tonight because of designs I pushed aside during th weekends. Well, so who’s gon be...
我的爱是说停不能停
hello World. I’m awake.
0206hrs
I laid in bed till 7pm today……..
I managed some of my work and now Hendi just picked me and we’re otw t nana…I kno its sunday and school’s at 11am. We’re going ktv…… And they used th “if you don’t go, I don’t go” shit on me.so ya.
