December 2011
for Auld Lang Syne, 2011
2009, http://caxs.tumblr.com/post/307638289/this-year 2010, http://caxs.tumblr.com/post/2539075341/last-day-of-the-year-2010
2011. here you go. it starts out well, it always does. every January feels like a key to unlock a new you, a new life, a new start. and its hopeful, its believable. until the other months creep in, new problem arises as well, new people, new hellos comes with new goodbyes....
0207hrs what if
When I come face t face with th reality of possibly losing you forever, I don’t see th strength or need t move forward anymore.
The year is coming to an end, goodnight.
So, what if I can’t forget you?
I’ll burn your name into my throat.
I’ll be the fire that’ll catch you.
“The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in...”
– Christian ; Moulin Rouge
“I know in the back of my mind that life would be so much easier if I never...”
– (via wordsandlyrics)
2303hrs raindrops keep falling on my head
I’m lying on my balcony floor. It sounds like tiny stones from th sky falling on my shelter…softer softer louder..more and more..louder. Its going to rain tonight. The heavens will cry with me in my foolishness.
CHRISTMAS
1646hrs
I thought I said my heart will never ache again.
0600hrs its still Christmas
So I spent boxing day with th family, and since I’m not so good with cards…I sat at a corner receiving awesome scenery of Japan from R and making ice cream plans and of cuz th usual talking like always, love how there’s some telepathy thing goin on bout th similar song choices or things we say. Quite amusing.
Anyway, its 6am. I do not understand how my body functions with so...
MERRY XMAS PEOPLE!!!!
“You’re beautiful but you’re empty. No one could die for you.”
– The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint Exupéry (via holyclitoris)
“I have the libido of a 15year old boy–my sex drive is so high.”
– Megan Fox (via danicabradford)
0313hrs right here, right now
I’m at peace. On a sane and healthy level with myself. And although everything seems fleeting, though I’ve acknowledged how fragile and unsettled situations are, I still manage t find joy in lil moments that creates more reasons for me to justify this part of my heart that I’m still saving after all this time… Still, in between smiles, I think of a lonelier place I’d...
XMAS NAILS WITH THE TWINS ; adv
today i got my Xmas nails done with the adorable twins again. Xmass tree and mr.Snowman! so lovelyyyyyy. Christmas is in 10days, hurry get yours fixed! Call +6596812068 to make an appointment, mention “CAXS” and get 10% off!
0632hrs im the darkness but i wna be the light
last night was well rested and the safest place i fall and awake to. earlier tonight Jo picked me and we sent Mwen off. i hate you mwen, you break my heart. we parked behind my place for awhile, talked about where we expected our lives to be. talked about of lives now. the others’ lives. everything felt right again somehow. its 6am. i should be up in 5hours time, mom’s shop re-opens...
“But love is different for every person. For some its hate, for some its joy, for...”
– James Frey ; The Final Testament of the Holy Bible
2132hrs there's an eclipse going on now
Go look at the Moon. A total lunar eclipse occurs when the Earth passes between the sun and the moon, throwing the moon into shadow.
Ju gave me a lil talk about how this works btw.
“Not only will the moon be beautifully red, it will also be inflated by the moon illusion,” NASA scientists explained. “For reasons not fully understood by astronomers or psychologists, low-hanging...
0750hrs Help, I'm alive
I assumed I was void of all feelings, King of my own castle. But when it comes to you…my weakness rushes in, my strength forgets itself, every tear falls and reaches for mercy to an unknown. I become a fool again, a sulking child.
With you I care too much, I terrorize my own heart.
Or maybe I’m just drained and tired. I wna sleep and not wake up but I know in a few hours time,...
0702hrs its Saturday. Its Saturday already
I sat outside my place fo 2hours. Locked out. I saw how th morning started. My head is going to burst from this giddiness. Plus I hate it, I hate how my heart goes soft sometimes again, how I get worried when I shouldn’t. Now my heart feels unsettled too.
Its time to send my brother to school now.
I’m mother fucking super woman.
Received today @ 8:04p - Andrew
“Don’t allow your wounds to transform you into something you’re not.” Paolo cohelo.
